Saturday, November 01, 2003

just getting frustrated. com hates me. barely chatting. xanga isnt working as wanted. blogger seems plain. writers block for fod. secrets increase. getting annoyed at the last one i thought i would rite now. mreh. checking.want to talk to michael agai! *^_^* hehe, called georgia. greatness! *kisses michaels cheek* 18 months, okae?
~Kirara~ at 8:45 PM

Friday, October 31, 2003

Alive. Barely functioning, but alive. Barely move either hand. Damn needles. My veins are weak. They suck. Had IV needle in left hand for 3 days. Starting coming out and leaking blood on Day 3. IV needle out for night. Hand sore, skin ripped up. Day 4, IV needle goes into right hand. Vein too weak to hold needle, comes out. Repoked into different vein, right hand. Not fun. Barely slept Day 4. Slept for long time other 3 days. Too much sleep. Right hand same as left. Ripped skin and ouchies. Slept all day today. All day. Awake now, but sleepy. I love you, Lissi.
~Kirara~ at 10:32 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2003

im really not happy rite now. i could be if i tried really hard, but im not. its hard to even open my stupid eyes. just want to sleep and not wake up until im better. i havent been eating. not cz im starving myself or anything, im just not hungry. last week was fun, but it was way too much for me to handle all at once. ive said that maybe a million times. things were... tolerable, but now everything seems to be snowballing down on me. hurt is everywhere... in and out. dont want to discuss it, but everyone knows anyways... wont be blogging for a few day...
~Kirara~ at 6:05 PM